Throughout the majority of the day, I often ask myself a question of "who am I?" Sometimes I feel so lost it feels as though it's eating me up, and sometimes it feels like I've finally gotten to that road of truly knowing myself. In all honesty, learning to love yourself and figure out who you are is always going to be a life-long process. But for now the question is, who I am I right now?
My name is Zoe Love, I also go by Bee and August. I am fifteen years old and I go by they/them pronouns along with going by various neopronouns such as vam/vamp, syl/sylv, bat/bats and lu/lust. I am a lesbian and polyamorous and am currently in a relationship with two wonderful human beings.
Some of my special interests include BTS, Vampire Diaries, Vampire Knight, Moulin Rouge, Tim Burton movies, writing and singing. I have two wonderful cats, a white maine coon named Nietzche and a black tabby cat named Sartre.
Now, that was just a basic introduction. But that's not enough to truly know who I am. The real question is how do you truly get to know someone? Is it when they can be vulnerable with you? When you know their likings and dislikes, what makes them happy or depressed? Is it when you've known someone for a long period of time? Because to be frank anyone who you know, whether they are an acquaintance, family or a close friend, could claim they "know" you.
Now, I don't know how it is for other people, but it's often where I realize I don't really know myself, and in the past few years I've felt all the more lost and confused than ever. And it could just be apart of getting older, but the uncertainty of it all is enough to give me unreasonable amounts of stress. Why is it that I stress so much about knowing who I am? Why is it that the feeling of being lost makes me feel terrified? These are things that come to mind often and truly I don't know how to change these feelings or make it so I don't feel as lost anymore. The biggest reason I am starting this blog, is to help with that. To help me get these thoughts and feelings out into the world and maybe help relieve some of the stress that comes along with them.
Join me as we discover more about ourselves and what it means to love ourselves, because that is the real goal here.
~Zoe.
